My Dark Side by Stephen Whitehead

Author:Stephen Whitehead
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: sex, gender, sexuality, LGBT, identity, family relationships, masculinity, femininity, BDSM, transexuality
ISBN: 9781785380013
Publisher: Andrews UK Limited 2014
Published: 2014-10-13T00:00:00+00:00

At some stage in this journey through the darker side of human sexuality, Teresa must have been asking herself why she was doing it, and just what was she getting out of it. Alan has introduced her to his world, it is not hers. She is a guest. For Alan, it is everything.

“There wasn’t a tremendous satisfaction for Teresa being there. She got less out of it than I did. I feel ashamed admitting it now, but I wasn’t fully satisfied with her at home, I needed to be out with her, at these clubs and parties. And when she stopped joining me at these clubs, or not going so often, I still needed to go myself. I still needed the satisfaction of being in an environment where other people could see me being the slave.”

If Alan and Teresa’s sexual world is not bizarre enough as it is, it now takes an even stranger turn.

“Teresa’s daughter-in-law came to live with us in Slough and she very quickly picked up on it and she treated me as a slave too. She role-played with me, verbally. Nothing physical ever happened between us, but she would have tremendous fun treating me as her submissive slave, say when we went shopping at Sainsbury’s. This would go on between me, Teresa and her daughter-in-law, at home and sometimes outside the home.”

Teresa and Alan are on a voyage of sexual and erotic discovery, finding out what works for them as individuals and as a couple. Their home is not just a place to eat and sleep, it is a surrogate S&M environment, physically and verbally, into which even the daughter-in-law has been enlisted.

But, even in the most loving and open relationships, achieving a balance of need is highly difficult. Invariably, one partner will end up making more of the sacrifices in order to please the other.

Alan, submissive as he might be in the club, cupboard or Thames sex-boat trip, is anything but submissive and retiring when it comes to demanding what he wants from Teresa. He is not aggressive in his sexual demands, but he is persistent, and it is Teresa who ends up accommodating Alan, rather than vice versa.

“I saw all these activities as the ‘main feature’. For me, the bondage, gagging, rubber and constraining where what it was all about. But looking back I realise that for Teresa this was more foreplay, the secondary events leading up to me bringing her to orgasm through my tongue, a dildo, or perhaps even fucking her on occasion.”

Teresa wants the orgasm. Alan isn’t bothered. He just wants to replicate the feelings of erotic, constrained, but heighted sexual pleasure he has been enjoying in different way, in different scenarios, ever since childhood.

“Often I wasn’t even hard, erect. I would come out of the cupboard after a few hours, not feeling aroused sexually, but feeling at peace, calm, thinking ‘wow, that was wonderful.’”

Secured and gagged, locked in the cupboard, Alan is almost in a meditative state. His mind wanders

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